Half Baked (Whole Hearted)

First off, I want to acknowledge that the cover image for this post feels very at odds with the title. I do realize I’m talking about shit and have chosen flowers to represent what this blog post is about. But listen, I’m still in the infancy stages of understanding how any of this works. Give your girl a break. Read on and it’ll at least make some sense…

Yesterday, my Mom and I took a trip to Great Falls for Mother’s Day to get some hanging baskets from Bundi Gardens. It was nice to spend some extended one on one time with her and the petunias we found made the drive well worth it! — God that sentence made me feel old.

Anyways, on our way there we got to talking about this slower season of life I’m in and how challenging I’ve been finding it to be content right now. Allowing myself time and space to rest and reflect on what I want out of the next chapter of life feels incredibly selfish and indulgent. I feel guilty. I keep thinking that people around me are going to think less of me because I’m not actively working on something “important” — whatever that means.

So, the solution I’ve decided on is to simply give fewer shits.

Give a shit less about what other people think of me.

Give a shit less if I’m the oldest person in the classroom.

Give a shit less if I ask a “dumb” question.

Give a shit less if someone doesn’t like what I had to say.

Give a shit less if I’m not always poised and polished.

I’m a human being—I’m supposed to be imperfect and messy. I should question my path and what I want for the future. There’s nothing wrong with choosing something different—dreaming of something bigger.

Life is too short not to.

Much too short to talk ourselves out of what we want simply because others might not understand it.

It’s okay if they don’t understand. They aren’t the ones living your life—you are.

So, consider giving a shit less. That freedom just might lead you to the life you’ve always wanted.

P.S. I promise someday soon I’ll write about something other than my internal dialogue during this transition 😉 I have lots of ideas on wellness, food, travel, fitness, relationships, spirituality and more that I want to share!

Stay tuned.